you  know the phrase... "Home is where the heart lives"? 

I miss home hahaha...

So last night I went to this gathering for my Mom's church right....  I have never recieved so many compliments from a group of strangers before haha.  Gotta love that Korean culture.  There were a few people I knew from when I lived here in middle school and they hadn't seen me in years, and for those who don't know, I had long hair and was chubby back then... and now my hair is gone and im skinny and tall haha... so it was a bit of a shock, and the fact that I'm in college kinda made them feel old... oooooh welllll

I'm looking forward to Thanksgiving... it will be really good seeing my cousins again... I can't believe how old we are all getting...  Kinda strange how life starts to excellerate as you get older.  As a kid you want to hurry and be a grown up, but once your there, you wish that life would just stand still for a moment so you can catch your breath.  I had a talk with my dad yesturday on the way to the airport.. and he was talking about how proud he is of how me and my brother turned out and all this stuff... that even though we have baggage because of different sorts of events that have happened to us, we still managed to come through... he said something that will never leave me...  he said.. "how you start your life, has a lot to do with how you end it."  I have been longing for a quote from my dad and thats the one I'm gonna be telling my kids when they get older.

On a more scary note... Im registering for classes today... AHHHHHH and here's the proposed sched...

Monday: Chemistry Lecture 2:00-4:50 P.M.

Tuesday: Basic American Sign Language 8:00-9:50 A.M.

               ESSP 286 Harvest Our Foods Writing Course 2:00-3:50 P.M.

Wednesday:  Scuba Diving Lab 8:00-9:50 A.M.

                     Chemistry Lab 2:00-4:50 P.M.

Thursday:  Basic American Sign Language 8:00-9:50 A.M.

                 The Atmospheres 12:00-1:50 P.M.

                  ESSP 286 Harvest Our Foods Writing Course 2:00-3:50 P.M.

Friday:  Scuba Diving Lecture 8:00-8:50 A.M.

And its only worth 16 Units... thats booty right there....

"friendship  is the first and basic human conviction. It is more than an emotion, it is greater than an impulse, it transcends a sentiment. There is something profound about friendship at its best. It is undoubtedly based on the sentiment of love, and has in association with it many other emotions, including, no doubt, both sympathy and respect. Friendship is the equivalent of love plus loyalty and more or less of the sex-element. It is so influential in human experience that there appear to be no lengths to which it will not go to assert itself and to justify its existence."

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So it's my birthday.... and drama has already happened.  I should have figured as much, since drama has the WORST timing in the world.  Being guilt tripped I think is the lowest thing a person can do, especially on someones birthday... I can safely say that birthdays suck! haha... 

I am 18 years old now.  I really cannot believe it.  When did things become so adult like?  I remember having to deal with my parents dropping me off or picking me up at some social event, or what I was going to wear on the very rare Free Dress days at Providence.  I remember when the most stressful thing was Theme Day.  We were kids then, not a single worry in the world.  Now look, we are adults, most of us on our own without Mommy and Daddy holding our hand.  We are growing up... and it's not what I thought it would be.  I guess it is true, when your a kid, you can't wait to grow up, but when you finally do, you wish you never did.

Blah I am a bum haha... I am grateful that it's my birthday and that I can celebrate it with people who I care about and who apparently care for me too!  Although since my birthday is so late, it has kind of lost its affect on people, mainly because everyone has been their and done that.  But it's ok, it is still a big deal to me because I can now legally, buy porn, a lotto ticket, ciggs, a lighter, sky dive, gamble in certain parts of California, and vote... haha...

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I decided it was time to start blogging again.. I don't really know why but here I am.  So, I don't think I have written a blog since honestly, Spring Break.  So much has happened since then.  Moving away to college is probably the biggest thing to happen to me so far.  It is a different world here, still deciding if this is where I want to be.  It's still new and unfamiliar to me and I think that is why I am having such a problem with it.  Going away to college is something that most kids go through.  What I wasn't ready for was being ripped away from the life I had and realizing that, that life that I loved, was never coming back to me.  Coming from a place where everyone knew me, I knew everyone, I knew my friends inside and out, I had a home to come home to everynight, and then coming to a place where no one knows who you are, anything about you, it's really scary!  But ok hello, it is part of growing up right?  That's what I keep telling myself.  I just have to give it time I guess.

On the plus side, I have made some pretty awesome friends out here.  Which gives me hope.  There are opportunities out here for my future career, which LA could not do.  And I think the friendships that I have from back home are stronger than ever.  I talk to them probably on a daily basis and we check up on each other. 

Hmm.... you know I realized that it is very hard to articulate my thoughts into words of wisdom... ok that is my goal with this xanga site, to be able to articulate my thoughts into words of wisdom by the time the school year is over.. sounds like a plan to me.